Constantine

I went, on a total whim, to see the latest Keanu Reeves film - Constantine. The verdict: mixed - a bit of odd theology, some really good bits, some cliches, some OTT special effects, but there was always Keanu Reeves to carry through the bad bits!
Anyway - there was a really good sound-bite from it. Keanu plays Constantine - a kind of fallen, but good, guardian angel/exorcist type of guy. Had a rocky life, lots of baggage, working through his 'calling', but struggling. He's talking to this high priest sort of figure about life/God/the universe, and the guy starts to impart some wise advice about God (my overall memory's a little hazy - can you tell?!)...and Constantine, interrupting him, is like 'yeah, I know' - of course he knows, he's experienced God, descended to hell, conversed with the angel Gabriel...he knows. So the high priest sort of guy responds, 'yeah you KNOW, but do you BELIEVE...?'.
I just thought it was good...watch the film I'd say, the good bits are worth persevering with the bad bits!
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the return

Well...nearly four months on since my last post here in land of blog, I'm back. I can't quite believe it's been so long.
Things have been problematic, there has been a bit of a vicious circle thing going on here. The pattern of too many of my weeks lately has been roughly as follows: I travel to work(3hours), I work(7-8hours), I travel home from work(3hours), I sleep (only lately though, for a few months back there "sleep" was a drowsy state between consciousness and unconsciousness which resulted in absolutely no rest or anything else constructive whatsoever), I get up early, I travel to work, ditto ditto until saturday. Saturday: sleep sleep sleep until sunday. Sunday: go to church, stress about church, get a little bit angry at church..back to monday. SO - you try and fit anything else in there, thinking/reading/blogging/socialising/relaxing have all kind of gone out of the (national express coach)window, it's been tough.
I think I'm on a straight now though...the upward climb has been coming to an end, now I can walk straight for a while and maybe (maybe) sometime soon I'll even get to run with abandon down the hill again? We shall see.
It's not really bad...please don't misunderstand me. My job is great, it challenges and stretches me in new ways and I really am doing what I want to do..it's just damn hard, and it's always easier when things are easy.
I do living well...living is what I do well. I play I laugh I cry I travel I converse I think I watch and hear, but it's been harder to do those things recently and that's taken its toll. The scales are tipping though, life IS an adventure and I just have to keep on living that way...
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